By The Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

By The Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead 
by Julie Anne Peters

     Daelyn has suffered major psychological damage from years of being bullied. The torment and embarrassment she received because of her weight started her downhill slide into despair. Daelyn has lost her desire to live and failed at several attempts to end her life. Her latest failure has left her unable to talk and on 24-hour suicide watch. Her parents barely trust her to go to school.
     Daelyn is biding her time. She only has 23 days until her Date of Determination. She discovers the Through the Light website on accident, but finds it to be a welcome change of pace to the other suicide websites and discussion boards she’s visited in the past. Instead of preaching and warning her against her decision, the website provides rational and informational posts and discussions about ending her life. - Back o' the Book
     You may have read that and thought "Oh my gosh, that sounds horrible!"  You're right, it does, but I loved the book. At almost 200 pages, this is a quick read and utterly engrossing. I had a very hard time putting it down. Although it deals with a very touchy subject, it is beautifully written. It is very blunt and the main character goes through some horrible bullying so you really feel for her. Her development is subtle but all pulls together at the end. I found her likable and real which made the story and situation believable.
     To say I enjoy depressing books is an understatement and this one was undeniably depressing; however, it does leave you with a good feeling and helps you appreciate the life and time you have been given. I won't spoil the ending but it was enough closure to satisfy. It's a quick book so you won't be trapped in the dreariness for too long and I would say it's worth it in the end.

-Recommended